Feel like crawling in a hole right about now

What an effing joke. I woke up to a really sore and red incision site on my stomach. I called the surgeon from Hell. I had to go in again. He gave me antibiotics and some antibactirial cream and bandages for the site. I am sooooo tired today. I just felt like I had no get up and go. Okay I had surgery about 1 week ago. Maybe I just overdid it yesterday. Anyhow I go to the bathroom only to urinate blood. Sorry for the graphics but there is not suppose to be blood anywhere anymore. I call the urologist office. They send me in to a lab by my house to have my urine checked. I just had the pee bag pulled out yesterday. I start running a fever. They call me back about 3 hours later. I have a urinary tract infection. Different antibiotics and those red pee pills to stop the pain everytime I need to use the restroom. Can it get any better than this? I slept the rest of the day and early evening. I couldnt even get up to go with my husband to pick up the kids from school. I am glad he has been home to do this stuff. I felt great yesterday and today I feel like a broken down old woman. Now I see how people just go and have a little operation and have major complications after that. Not even the pain pills are helping. I have gotten so negative about everything lately. I just want to crawl in a hole right about now. I remember a time I ran, played soccer, went to the beach. I have my sweats on and just dont want to do anything. I wonder if old people feel like this ..or really sick people. I just want to lie down and cry. All this stuff and worrying about my son probably having to go to war sometime before the year is up this year. I know I dont have control over it. He joined. No one put a gun to his head to join. Its still always in back of my mind. Its bigger when the news comes on and said some 21 year old died from Hawaii who was in Iraq. I think about it everytime I go out to my car and see that magnet of Matthew Maupin on the back of my Nissan Suv. My husband thinks I should just take it off. Not until they find him. I need to have faith he will be found. I need to have faith my son will be okay there. I need to have faith I will be okay and a better person for all my trials I am going though. I talked to a priest when I was in the hospital about everything. I still want to crawl in a hole right now.