This weekend I went to the 50th state fair, did my paper for school (which I got my first A on..thank you very much..),went to play glow in the dark miniture golf and then finally the big moment...I got into it with the son. After all weekend of doing crap he decides now he wants to talk to my husband. Not me mind you...my husband. I ask him what he wants to talk to him about. He says "About being able to get on my feet and stay here this summer". I lit into him. I told him are you kidding me? You went through $5000 in a matter of a week. You go and play basketball every night ..like you are Kobe or something. You don't work or if you do its usually a shit job that you only manage to stay no more than 2 days at. I told him your father is waiting for you to call him. He has work for him on his boat. He will pay him minimum wage for now but when you are not working ...that is something. He tells me he got a job yesterday at a Guess store. Its a little too late. And I told him don't even hold that bullshit of going to Iraq over my head. You never got orders yet and the best thing I can do for him is pray for him and hope the Army trained him well enough. I told he has until tomorrow to get out. I dont know where he is going. I dont want to know where he is going. The one thing I do know this kid is killing me slowly every day. I told him I have no money for him anymore, I dont want to do his laundry or pick up after him. He has to go. He started crying. I started crying. Then I left the room. Why cant he get a job. If he tried then I would have no problem helping him. He graduated in 2003 and still thinks he is on summer vacation or something. He doesnt want to work. I starting feeling bad this morning when I woke up. Where will he go? Where will he sleep? I called my husband and he said "Dont even feel bad about anything. He had time and opprotunities and he pisses them all away. He could of been playing football his junior year at USC. Nope he managed to piss away that scholarship. No at 21 I dont expect him to know everything or conquer the world. I do expect him to work. Not to help us in any way. Just to pay for his car expenses and have money in his pocket. To start saving. Nope not him. He would rather blow it on his friends. Lord just get me through tomorrow. Just get me through it in one piece.