Eating, Kids School Clothes and Old Friends...Nothing makes sense anymore.

I so love to eat. That is the problem. Its not junk food I eat too much of. I hate Mcdonalds and Burger King and stuff like that but I do cook a lot. I love to eat my cooking and when I cook I tend to eat more of it than I should. I made a mean meatloaf last night. I had 3 of those loaf pans. I ate like half of one. Does anyone know how much meatloaf feels like lead in the gut. I am not a chip eater or cookie or cake eater but I gorge myself on what I cook. So then I try to cook things I dont like, like the stuff kids live for like chicken nuggets ..YUCK. But then I find I tend to go out to eat then. I go to the Shack for thier Buffalo Hot Wings and a huge Ceaser salad or to Zippys for their fried chicken plate with the best garlic mash this side of the PEKOS. Okay so now you know how I gained weight. So I have been doing the walks. Pushing myself to actually do them. I got my pedometer so I know how much I am walking. I have been lacking a bit...getting ready for the kids return to school and such. Damn when did kids school supplies and uniforms cost so damn much. I remember when I went to school my MOM took me to Sears and I bouhgt like 7 new outfits and shoes and that was it. I went to my sons school... a catholic all boys prep school and his damn uniforms a lone cost me $250. That is not including his school supplies and shoes I have to take him to buy. I guess its way cheaper than buying regular school clothes. Anyhow I got an email from the 1st boyfriends He is asking me when we can talk again. I am so not responding. This can get way out of hand if I let it. My best friend J was the one this guy tried to play with. Thats how we became best friends. Anyhow I love her like a sister and I would never do anything to hurt her. She never got over him because she really liked him. She told me she emailed him through the site Classmates and he never responded. I told her I talked to him because I thought she should know. Big mistake. She seems upset. She has been married for 25 years to her husband ...why is she getting upset? Oh well I dont have time to figure peoples motives or shit. I have so many things on my own plate. Like I said its really good to talk to old friends from where you grew up but thats it. That is why I moved to Hawaii to get as far away from the bullshit of Orange County as I could. It seems its still pretty thick there.