July 27th and counting til August 16

I am on a 21 day program. Its a program that I monitor for 21 days starting today to see my progress in shedding the fat from my body. Its a goal for me. If I start doing in 12 week increments I wont get it done. I wont step on a scale until then. Its hard but I wont. Anyhow I ate really clean yesterday. In fact I am able to put on my size 16 cargo shorts on today. People do you know how long its been since I actually got into a size 16. Its a big deal for me. I guess with all the walking I have been doing these past few days it has brought some comments from people who I just dont ever think who notice. My kids. My soon to be 13 year son 'N' said " Man mom you have well defined calves". Yes I do. Just a month ago I would of told you they were fat but now I am seeing my muscularity start coming back in my legs. Its a good feeling. The benifits so far is that I sleep better at night and I get all that negetive energy out. I think my meds need to be changed. I bit off the ladys head at Jack in the Box yesterday. WTF ... all I want is an order that is correct without having to go park in the front and wait 15 minutes. I made an ass out of myself but in the moment I could of cared less. My kids said everyone was staring. I am trying to get down to were my body is back to where the picture I have on myspace used to be. I was 130 then and cut solid. That was before the last 3 kids. I just think all my health issues will disappear if I am down to there again. In fact I know it. It not easy but its doable. Yes my back hurts and my legs are tired but then I dont know too many people who lift weights and work out constantly aren't. In fact when I used to lift heavy my arms were always sore. I guess that is the price you pay. There is always a price to pay ..isnt there? My best friend who I grew up with 'J's parents are here in Hawaii. Somewhere. They are suppose to call me. I havent seen them since I was in 10th grade. Well I better get going. I have to go and order my son 'N' a cake for his birthday and go get him something. He says money or clothes. I just see this being a long day at the mall with pretzels,soda and Starbucks to tempt me. Thou shall not partake. I better go eat breakfast first. Have a great day!!!!