Sooooo out of sorts

I have been so depressed lately. Its not anything specific it just life. Yes I have had a lot going on but lately I just feel out of sorts. I have friends who I can talk to .. I have a husband who I think gets it ..what I am going through. I stop and at times think its that menopause crap. Damn I am only 45 but a very young 45 I am told. I just want to kick someones ass and then I get sobby...then I get tired..then I just want to hide under the blankets all day. But really with kids who demand something from me 24/7 that is never going to happen. I am feeling old lately. I dont know why..I just am. My mother died when she was 50 years old and I just remember her always being beautiful. She took really good care of herself. Not a wrinkle on her face at 50 and no botox or plastic surgery. She didn't look old until she got sick with cancer. I wonder if she ever felt how I feel. I feel so overwhelmed at times. It seems like all I ever do is work. If I am not working at my job (which I haven't gone back to because I am still on workmens comp) I am working at home ..constantly. Washing, folding, cleaning , cooking something. It just seems not to end. I am one of those people who if it doesn't get picked up or cleaned then I think about it over and over. I know it sounds like OCD but its not. Its just that I know I have to do it because no one else will and it will bug me until it gets done. I think that is procrastanation. Anyhow I wonder if there are people who are always pretty happy in life all the time. I just seem to be out of sorts. I am on menopausal meds. Maybe its just not working. Sometimes I really hate being a woman. Not that I would trade it to be a man. It just seems like woman take on all the burden of housework,feeding,cleaning, homework and then if they have the time to do anything else they are so tired to do it. I have hobbies but like I said if the other stuff doesn't get done first then I cant do the fun stuff. By the time I am ready I am sooooo tired.