Oct 27 Sleepy in Hawaii

Another sleepness night. I was falling asleep on the couch and I swear I heard my son Giovanni calling me "MOM...MOM". I woke up with a shot. I looked at the clock 3:00 am. Shit I couldnt go to sleep after that. So I came on the computer until I got sleepy and slept about 2 hours and got up with a headache again. It felt more like a hangover headache but I dont drink. I had to take pain meds and they made me groggy today. I cleaned house with Walts help. Got ready to go to the kids conference's and they both missed making the honor roll by a few points. They were so disappointed at the schoo/church assembly. We had to go to the school tonight because they had a meeting in the church about sex abuse and how to teach your kids in saying no and stuff like that. I guess with all the priest who have been outed by abused kids that the catholic church in our diocease is showing videos to the kids in school about good touches and bad touches. Its about time if you ask me. Anyhow they passed out awards after to the kids and my kids didnt make the honor roll and were just devastated. I mean tears and all. I had to take them out to Baskin n Robbins later. I havent talked to Walt much today. I figure its better to be quiet than argue right now. I dont have the engery. I thought I was crying on his shoulder last night about me missing Giovanni and he tells me that my son is like a drug to me. That I am addicted to him because I always get wrapped around his crap. Helllo do you not see that its love I have for my son. Hey bud I cant help it if your two kids treated you like crap and still do. I just dont get it. It must be a man thing. I talked to my sister and told her and she said it was a man thing. I have a headache again. I want to sleep but for some reason I just cant right now.