Oct 30th One more day of being 44

Yes tomorrow is the big day. I am here today with a another massive headache. I have no idea where its coming from but my lymph glands by my throat are really sore and I am so tired. I went to doctors office and he said I may be getting a virus. Because of not having energy I maybe getting mono. I slept so much today. We went to my sons soccer game yesterday and I swear all I wanted to do was sleep. I came home and crawled up into bed and did just that. I just have been so agitated yesterday that the rest did me good. Giovanni called on Friday and only could speak to me for 2 minutes. Enough time to tell me he is okay , get our address and to tell me to call his friends and let them know that he is sending thier letters to my house. I called his friend David who is going to boot camp soon with the info. David is suppose to let me know Tuesday when he is going in. I watched a good series on boot camp for the marines on t.v that I had recorded. They were in Parris island. I suppose Giovannis boot came is very similar. Letters were a big thing for the recruits. I still havent gotten access to that militarymoms site. Anyhow Halloween will be here and my birthday of course. As ususal Alexandria asked Walt if he got me anything and he said no that he might have to pick up something tomorrow. Just once I wish he would get it right. I dont want for things but he needs to step up to the plate and remember and just do something special. He never does and when he does its always 2 weeks later. He used to but that has all stopped. The only thing I want right now is to go back home. I want to see my old friends , my old neighborhood, my family. Its not like we dont have the money. He just keeps on thowing the building the new house crap into it ...all the while he looks on the internet for a vintage car to get. My kids want to go to the movies today but I swear I just want to curl up in bed and sleep. Its noon and I still am in my pajamas here.