Today sucked because I am soooo emotional. I went to my doctors and NO BRAIN TUMOUR or anything like that. Now only if he can figure out why I have been gettting these terrible migraines. He gave me some new head meds and some more pain meds. I feel so tired. So after that I went to SAMS CLUB and out of the blue started thinking about Giovanni going into the army and starting crying. Yep right in the store. I want someone to listen me and hear me. This is my baby who is going into the army. I know I have to leave it up to God but it has been soooo hard. I called him and left like several messages for him. I asked if he needed anything at all. No return calls to me from him. His phone must be acting up again. Anyhow I found myself getting angry at his dad Gino. This guy is so selfish. He basically in not having a relationship with the kids. He thinks he is a victim. I feel angry because I chose this idiot to father my children way back when. I shouldnt feel guilty about it but he just snowed all of us. The divorce was hard because he made it that way. I swear I just hope God listens to me and protects Giovanni. I want him to have a safe journey in this life. I want him to be happy and nothing but good things for him. I want him to find himself and treasure life and the moments that are important. I love him with all my heart and I hope he knows it. I dont want to get worked up again. I fully understand that woman who wants to talk to president Bush ..Cindy Sheenan. I feel for her and her lost. This war sucks and I really feel we dont have to be there for no reason.. but we are and its men and women like my Giovanni who sacrifice thier lives for me. I have praise for him for making this decision. God just keep him close to you and bring him home to us ...his family who love him. I feel so drained today with this headache and this emotional crap. God just help me to relax and make tomorrow a better day for everyone.
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Linda,,, I am thinking of ya and sending reinforments. Hang in there, remember I am here.
Love ya
Linda - Gosh days like this are difficult. Jaye told me to drop by. My oldest daughter is getting ready to leave in the air force. I cry at any time for any reason right now. You hang in there. If he decides for sure that he is going to join and gets sworn in, you might want to register over at www.militarymoms.net. There is a wonderful bunch of ladies over there who post messages regularly and it's a great support group (I cry when I read their stuff too!) Just hang in there!
Thanks Jaye and Kim for your support. Sorry Julian ..you sound like a nice person but I am sooo not into penile implants,dyfunkstion,pill or enhancements... whatever floats your boat I say. LINDA
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