A boob job as a Xmas gift?

So I have been dragging my behind with this Christmas thing and sick kids and so on and so on. The real thing that has been bothering me was what has not been going on wih my husband. Well anyhow I have been keeping quiet. I know its hard to believe but I just wanted to find the moment we could talk where we wouldnt get to shouting and stuff. I was going to bring this up later. Anyhow we are eating breakfast and somehow he starts talking about the job again. Telling me there was a case that one of his beat partners went to and they needed an ambulance because the lady's breast augumentation was oozing and she was in immense pain. We started somehow talking about Anna Nicole Smith and Pamela Anderson Lee and I started telling " Oh yeah I heard both of these woman had to go back to their surgeon 3-4 times and have their boobs fixed because they popped or where too big,or were infected. He comes back with "That is what I was gonna get you for Xmas.. I was going to give you money to get yours done". I was kind of taken aback. I didnt want to feel like this was an insult but since things havent been that great ...maybe this is what he has been after. Maybe he isnt happy with how I look. Okay so I am not happy with how I have been looking lately. Okay so I have given birth to five children and breast fed them all. I have always liked the size I was (36c) but when I lose weight they shrink. Yes at 45 years old gravity is having its way with me and push ups or underwires.. I cant live without. I need to lose weight because I have gained around 70 lbs since I met my husband. I dont want to get cans that are bigger and have them look like fat cans. I cant believe I am actually entertaining the thought. Anyhow so later we talked and I talked about us not doing things together and then about the Xmas gift. He told me thats all I have been talking about lately about "If I had the money I would get me boob done". Have I? I had no idea. Yeah I would like a lift but only when I lose the weight. Anyhow he told mine are fine but that little voice inside of me doesnt believe him. I think he does want a sexy looking wife...maybe all men do. I never thought myself as sexy..okay most days anyhow. With runny around dealing with kids and all the stuff we have been dealing with maybe I let that part of my life just wander. I dont dress up anymore and sexy underwear ... all I can say it that they hurt in places they shouldnt. Anyhow I guess I have to lose the weight and put a really big effort this time. I had lost 40 lbs and was gaining muscle but when I had my knee surgery I just gained it back. Anyhow all that just keeps on going through my mind is ..FOR BETTER OR WORSE. I guess in order for me to be really happy I need to make the initative and get unfat again. The boob job? That will have to wait ..if thats what I want to do. But one thing I do know ..I am not doing it for any man. I could use a nice diamond pair of earrings though.