A Starbucks whiney moment

My husband in on the big island. He left at 4:00 am this morning. I had to wake up the kids to take him and drop him off. He called about 11:00 and said that he interviewed with the Chief of Police there. It looks like it maybe a go and really soon. I am not ready for this. The kids are still in school and I technically still have a job too even though I am out on workmens comp. The chief asked my husband if I would be interested to work there. NO!!!! Is he crazy. I want out of police work and crime scenes. If I were going to stay in working with crums then I would become a Criminal attorney or something. Then I just would be defending the crums whom I have gone to scenes where they shit all over things. I could never do that. And what about school. Okay I could audit classes there. I just dont want to do the packing thing right now. I am just drained. I need a really good nights sleep I think. I have to take the kids for their eye exams after school today and I am still sitting here unmotivated..tired and yes whiny. I need to pull my head out of my ass and breath...just breath. Solution for now is run to Starbucks and get a gingerbread latte with 4 shots of espresso. I am so addicted to this stuff it is like liquid crack.