That illuminous thing that hangs in the air

He just gave HER custody....just like that. What a bozo. I understand all that S did to W. Now its going to be her turn to be responsible for him? She cant even be responsible for herself. What person do you know that at 40 has gone through maybe 40 jobs in her life. I wish I was kidding. She works maybe a couple of months if that and quits. She has nothing she owns not even a car and she is going to be responsible for S. She is on husband #3 and just latches on to them to drain them dry. I can see it now. This kid is going downhill and fast. You can't save what doesnt want to be saved. She let him go to a beach house with his friends the Wednesday before Thankgiving and he came back just yesterday. She didn't even know where the beach house was. What kind of parent lets their 17 year just do what the hell he wants. What exactly does she think they were doing at this beach house? She has drug test to prove he is never clean. There are no boundries for this kid. No goals. He hasn't been to school in like forever. Maybe thats what God means when he was talking about lost souls. W said he will never forgive him. I believe him. He was in court half the day. The judge now wants S to come to court on the 21st with her and W has to be there too. At least they will credit W with the arrearage she owed him. I imagine if she isn't going to get child support until March of 2006 then S will be kicked out. She told the judge that she is afraid of S because he has been getting in her face. That is called payback. I predict he will hit her by the first of the year. Why didn't he ever do that to me? I am only his stepmom. That is when you give everything to a child and they never earned anything and he even expected it. I am just thankful to God for having kids that didnt make alcohol and drugs a part of their lives. What did I do different that W didn't do or the ex-wife? I guess its that threat thing. That illuminous thing that hangs in the air that you know if you cross that line ...the worst thing will happen to you. I guess a part of it was luck too. Yes at times my older children made lazy choices but nothing that would hurt me in my soul. Drugs are such a downfall. Especially the type of drugs that are out there now. Crystal Meth just throws your family away..you lose everything. I see it everytime I go to work. I hate the choices S made. I hate that he changed. I hate that it pained everyone in our family. I hate that I shed tears for him. I hate that he threw away his own father and family for drugs and alcohol. He lost the best thing he had. I also thank God that W has a second chance with our children to do it better. I also thank God they have me,that illuminous thing that hangs in the air that they know if they cross that line ...the worst thing will happen to them.