NOV 16th still/ The Biggest Loser

I went today to the University to see what classes I needed to audit and talk to my counsler. He is telling me to go for it. He said age should'nt be a factor at all. He said he couldn't tell I was 45..he actually told me I looked like I was still in my 30's. Okay either he is the biggest flatterer or the biggest liar. I went to the book store there to pick up the class schedules for the spring. I am so excided. I felt like a student again walking around campus. Okay so there were kids I could've given birth to all round campus but so what. There were also some really older people too. I need to put this age thing to rest. Walt called me on my cell as I was walking back to the car. He asked where I was because he had the house plans. I told him and he didnt sound too happy. Shit I put off going to medical school once before for someone and we got divorced not too long after that.. I think he is supportive as long as it is not real. Well its real bucko. He loves being a cop so much and always comes home and talks about the department. Really I am so tired of hearing about that place. There are days I just want to say SHUT UP Already. The one thing I know for sure I dont want to go back to my job there. I hate the bull that is there and most of the people I work with get on my nerves bigtime. Its such a gossip haven.

My knee that my doctor told me there is almost nothing he could do has been really killing me. Its been even hard to get up from a chair. I have to march in his office to demand he do something.... at least a scope of it. I suspect the MRI didnt pick up the torn whatever. I need to be out a couple more months from work. I am just so mentally not ready to go back to work there right now. I think after all the images of stuff I have in my mind of scenes , it has done something to me.

Anyhow to the program the Biggest Loser. I taped it and from Monday night and finally watched it tonight. It was amazing. I think by being in this enviorment I too could lose weight and work out and eat well. So I downloaded an application to be on the show. I have done that before for Suvivor and stuff like that but just never went throught with it. Its 3 months away from your family. Shit I will just give it shot and who knows. These people are really overweight but I am tettering there too. Some have me beat by 20 lbs, more so I dont know if they would take someone who is not 200 lbs. Anyhow I do live in my fantasy world but not too long. Maybe being away for 3 months from my family would get them to apprecitate me more.