November 2nd Fighting the Crud

Today is my oldest sisters birthday. She has to be 57 I think. God she is almost 60. I remember when I just thought 30 was anciet..lol. Anyhow Happy Birthday Annette. Yesteday was a crappy day only because I was just so tired from this crud. I feel asleep on the couch for several hours. I feel better today but not by much. Walt came home last night and tried to turn this all around about not doing anything or getting me anything for my birthday. I tried to explain it to him without getting upset but I was hurt and somehow his voice started to raise and I just let the room. Actually I left to the grocery store. He does this all the time. I have come to figure out when he gets upset he is getting that way because he knows he is wrong. I just would like to know how can a person who does birthdays and holidays in a big way not make it known that their birthday or holiday or motherday or anniversary shouldnt be the same. I dont want back all I do ..I just want him to give it from the heart. Even if it is just a card or note saying how much he appreciates me . Oh well ... I figure I am beating a dead horse sometimes. They are not going to go just because you beat them. Anyhow on to better things. Giovanni finally wrote me. He wished me a happy birthday and told me to have a good one because he knows how crappy they have been these past few years. Sad but true. He is doing well and I felt better after I got the letter. He will be home for Christmas. My oldest daughter Christina called yesterday and told me that she may be home for Christmas too. I just hope there is peace in this home at that time because there has been so much going on with kids , building a home, Walts family ..etc. etc. I must have been really depressed because there is ton of chocolate in my house and I have not partaken any. We had almost no trick o treaters this year. I sat out in front of the house for 2 hours and it just seems there were hardly any children. It will be worse when we move to the big island. I think each house is 1-3 acres away from each other. I guess the kids will do something else for halloween.