Nov 3rd but almost the 4th. ~~~~Dreams~~~

Today was rather quiet seeing how I am starting to feel a little better but Walt is down with the full blown flu. That means I may get it or the kids will. When he gets sick which is hardly ever he gets it really bad. He said he is taking me out this Saturday for my birthday seeing how he didnt do anything on the day. We are suppose to go with some good friends but I dont see how seeing he is really sick and all. The doctor was out today so I will call him in the morning and see if Walt can still get that Tamiflu. The stuff works wonders. I did fall asleep this afternoon for a spell and had some really nice dreams. The first one was of my ex boyfriends brother. We had been really good friends before I went out with his brother and then our friendship died. I think at the time he had liked me but he never did anything about it so his brother started to talk to me and we went out and well that is all history now but anyhow the dream was so nice because we were good friends again. It was nice to resolve in a dream even if it was a life time ago. God that was like 25 years ago but it just seems like yesterday. I had a dream about building our home too. There was this wall of beautiful mahogony drawers. I think it was a walk in closet and it felt so nice to finally have the house built in my dream and all. I actually woke up feeling good and hopeful. Its funny how a good dream will make you feel good the rest of the day. Anyhow my stepdaughter called me today and told me that my sons old girlfriend is dying of cancer. My God she is only 20 years old. She apparently was pregnant from her current boyfriend and when she went in for an ultrasound and they could find no fetus ..only a placenta. When they did the d&c they found several cancer cells. They scheduled a lap and found out she had uterine cancer and it spread to her lungs. Whooo ..how did that happen. From your uterus to your lungs. So now she is taking chemo and radiation but the chemo is not working and she has lost her hair and is more embarrased by her hair loss than dying of cancer. Maybe thats her way of dealing with it. I am not sure if I am going to tell my son or not right now seeing that he is in boot camp. It was like his first girlfriend and he has had many opportunies to get back with her but he never wanted to. I feel bad for her. She will never have a child or her long beautiful hair she had before. I may go to her house and see if there is anything I can do to help her. My stepdaughter told me she talked to her brother Shaun too. Said he told her he quit school and is trying to find a full time job and cant wait to get out of his moms house. Oh well it was his choice to lie to us and do drugs and run to her. Stupid ..he had like 3 more months and he could of graduated. He will find out how hard it will be to find work with no diploma. WHAT A DUMMY. Walt has his court hearing on the 30th for custody. His ex filed since we had custody of Shaun. Walt is going to ask that he be placed in a live in drug rehabilitation program since he mom thought it was alright for him to quit school. He is back hanging with the druggie friends of his too. She lets him go there all the time. I got through the high school years without my oldest two not doing drugs or getting pregnant . They still dont do drugs or either of them have children. But then we have Shaun and Chelsey. My husband is so angry and embarassed by his children. The hurt is deep. I really hope these kids do the right thing. Chelsey seems to be growing up and she is a good mommy to her child. Now if she could get it right with her relationship with her childs father. Boy why do young girls pick the most baddest boy to have a child from? This is this guys 3rd child and the other two died in his care. He is only 21 and another one who quit school. I dont know about kids today .. I just dont know.